A letter to my 20th birthday

I have some self reflections on my exposure and experience tonight. First of all, I recall what I went through these 2 years after I entered CUHK. Due to the social events in 2019 when some local cuhkers fought against HK police in a bridge in front of the school gate, my university faces a bad reputation in mainland China, which I can tell from the intonations and subtle messages of their words. And I returned to Hainan and have been attending online lectures until now. To be honest, 2 out of 4 years' university life have been wasted. I easily lose self-control and can't resist the temptations of Go(called Weiqi in Chinese), animations, TV series like Game of Thrones, fictional novels and the list goes on. Looking back to it, I feel shamed and realize it's time to change.

What can I do to demonstrate myself to the fullest and live my life to the best? I can make a to-do list and rigorously stick to the terms I've set. In the short run, it's urgent to improve my English and score higher in the IELTS and my goal is at least 8. I also need to make more friends and try my best to learn from them. There are many excellent mainland students of my university currently in Shenzhen now. I truly treasure our relationships and in effort to enhance my interpersonal skills to get acquainted with them. Knowing more ppl and analyzing their characteristics is always intriguing, which I believe is much more important than the school teaching.

In the long term, stick to extensive reading is crucial in building up my mindset and getting my brains into deep thinking. It's possible for me to read a new book every two weeks. Besides, having some planning for my future will have a foundation for my career path. All I know is I will pursue my career in the GBA in the business-related industries. But what job am I really fit with? I still can't make up my mind. Perhaps accountant since I major in accounting? Or a banker cuz I've interned in the Bank of Hainan? Will I become a freelancer like my father who invests in some stocks in A-share and has a multitude of free time?

It's easy for an adolescent like me to get puzzled and feel like lost in a desert. All in all, what I truly believe in is that I need to be sedulous strict with myself. And keep modest and have introspections everyday.